Monday, July 19, 2010

Missing Alayna and Ella

Tonight I went to Brian's softball game.  A big step for me since I don't like to go out into the public.  It went okay for the most part.  But I can't help but notice all the little children at the game.  And my thoughts drift to what would it have been like (at this time next year) to take two 9 month olds to see daddy play softball.  I guess I will never know and that makes me sad... 
After Brian's softball game we went to visit the girls.  It is so hard seeing their names in a cemetery when they should still be in my womb.  We never stay too long because it's still too hard for me.  I always get teary eyed but its important to us to visit them.  They were and forever will be a part of us.

No comments:

Post a Comment