Tonight I went to Brian's softball game. A big step for me since I don't like to go out into the public. It went okay for the most part. But I can't help but notice all the little children at the game. And my thoughts drift to what would it have been like (at this time next year) to take two 9 month olds to see daddy play softball. I guess I will never know and that makes me sad...
After Brian's softball game we went to visit the girls. It is so hard seeing their names in a cemetery when they should still be in my womb. We never stay too long because it's still too hard for me. I always get teary eyed but its important to us to visit them. They were and forever will be a part of us.
Boulder Ridge Zoo
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