Thursday, November 18, 2010

5 Months and Counting

It's been over 5 months and I still hate mornings.  I still wake up each and every morning wishing things had turned out differently.  I still lay in bed feeling bad for myself.  But after a few minutes of "pour me thoughts" I start praying for my happier tomorrows and dreaming of the morning I will wake up smiling.

And then I read this yesterday...

Listen to what the unjust judge says.  And will not God bring about justice for his chosen ones, who cry out to him day and night? Will he keep putting them off? I tell you, he will see that they get justice, and quickly. (Luke 18:6-8). 

God's timing is not ours to command.  If we do not start the fire with the first strike of our match, we must try again.  God does hear our prayer, but He may not answer it at the precise time we have appointed in our own hands.  Instead, He will reveal Himself to our seeking hearts, though not necessarily when and where we may expect.  Therefore we have a need for perseverance and steadfast determination in our life of prayer.

In the old days of flint, steel, and brimstone matches, people had to strike the match again and again, perhaps even dozens of times, before they could get a spark to light their fire, and they were very thankful if they finally succeeded.  Should we not exercise the same kind of perseverance and hope regarding heavenly things? When it comes to faith, we have more certainty of success than we could ever have had with flint or steel, for we have God's promises as a foundation.

May we, therefore, never despair. God's time for mercy will come--in fact, it has already come, if our time for believing has arrived.  Ask in faith without wavering, but never cease to petition the King simply because He has delayed His reply.  Strike the match again and make the sparks fly. Yet be sure to have your tinder ready, for you will get a fire before long.

I do not believe there is such a thing in the history of God's eternal kingdom as a right prayer, offered in the right spirit, that remains forever unanswered. (Streams in the Desert)

So I will strike the match again and again and again and I will not stop striking the match until my fire is ablazing!!!  Because I do believe that I will be a mother again.  And that Brian will be a daddy.  We are so ready for our dream to become a reality...but until our fire is ablazing we patiently wait.

Had a good doctor appointment this morning so that always lifts the spirit (for awhile).  Now I'm off to meet my friend Lacey for lunch (at none other than Panera Bread)!!!  And then it's off to work for a nice short 4 hour shift.  And I'll be ending the night at a Silpada Party hosted by some wonderful coworkers.  Happy Thursday my friends!

Take delight in the LORD, and he will give you the desires of your heart...Be still before the LORD and wait patiently for him. Psalm 37 (verses 4 and 7) 


  1. Waiting with you friend, with our angels looking down on us with the utmost love.