Sunday, April 10, 2011

Boyne and Blessings

On Thursday Brian and I headed up to Boyne Mountain to spend the night at Avalanche Bay with my whole family (minus my brother Brandon and his wife Jana). It was a quick trip...there and back in 24 hours but we had a great time!!! I only took a few pictures since my hands were mostly occupied by the little ones but enjoy the few I've posted.

Uncle Brian and Cambrey after a ride
Ready for day 2...Kristi and I with the kiddos 
Addi, Cambrey, Cole, and Kylynn

But as always my kiddos were never far from my mind. I couldn't help but think how much different this trip would have been if Alayna and Ella had been there with us. At 6 months old they most definitely would have kept this mama busy (and I'm sure their daddy too). And of course after thinking about the girls my mind drifted to the fact that I should be 21 weeks pregnant with Luke. But I am not pregnant and I do not have my girls. And this folks makes me sad. But someday my little blessings WILL fill my home and NOT just my heart.

I came across a song entitled Blessings on a blog that I recently started following called The Johnson's Journey.  She is a fellow infertile walking the treacherous road of infertility. And I couldn't agree more with what Bobbi said..."Walking through infertility brings more questions than answers, more pain than joy, more tears than smiles."

But there ARE blessings in this journey too. And although sometimes it's hard to see the blessings through my tears...I KNOW that they are there. This journey has made me a stronger person. A more compassionate person. It has made me a fighter. But most importantly it has shown me that His love never fails.


Blessings by Laura Story

We pray for blessings
We pray for peace
Comfort for family, protection while we sleep
We pray for healing, for prosperity
We pray for Your mighty hand to ease our suffering
All the while, You hear each spoken need
Yet love us way too much to give us lesser things

‘Cause what if your blessings come through raindrops
What if Your healing comes through tears
What if a thousand sleepless nights
Are what it takes to know You’re near
What if trials of this life are Your mercies in disguise

We pray for wisdom
Your voice to hear
And we cry in anger when we cannot feel You near
We doubt Your goodness, we doubt Your love
As if every promise from Your Word is not enough
All the while, You hear each desperate plea
And long that we'd have faith to believe

‘Cause what if your blessings come through raindrops
What if Your healing comes through tears
What if a thousand sleepless nights
Are what it takes to know You’re near
And what if trials of this life are Your mercies in disguise
When friends betray us
When darkness seems to win
We know the pain reminds this heart
That this is not, this is not our home,
It's not our home

‘Cause what if your blessings come through raindrops
What if Your healing comes through tears
And what if a thousand sleepless nights
Are what it takes to know You’re near
What if my greatest disappointments
Or the aching of this life
Is the revealing of a greater thirst this world can’t satisfy
And what if trials of this life
The rain, the storms, the hardest nights
Are your mercies in disguise

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