Monday, April 25, 2011

Worshiping While Waiting

Day 2 of National Infertility Awareness Week...

Today my topic of choice is "Worshiping While Waiting." A few months back (after losing Luke) I decided that I wanted to read some books on infertility and loss. While on the internet one day I came across a book titled Hannah's Hope by Jennifer Saake. This book is a MUST READ FOR ANY AND ALL DEALING WITH INFERTILITY. And if you yourself have never dealt with infertility but you know someone close to you who has or is dealing with it...YOU SHOULD READ IT TOO because you will begin to understand why we infertiles act the way we do. Over the next couple of days I've decided to share bits and pieces of the book with you all but seriously do whatever you can do to read this book. Here's a summary of what the books about:

You can meet Hannah in the pages of 1 Samuel, chapters 1 and 2. The Bible says she was "barren," and we know she suffered heartache, anguish, and grief because of her empty arms. Perhaps you do too. Hannah's Hope is for all who long for a child yet to be conceived, grieve for a baby too soon passed from the womb, or have lived through the no-man's-land of failed adoption. It is a guide to assist you in making wise decisions as you struggle through your grief. And by the end of the journey, God may surprise you by the ways He answers your heart's cry. Compassionately written by a woman who knows well these painful struggles, Hannah's Hope will direct you to the Source of strength, whose name is "the God of all comfort."

A snip it from Hannah's Hope (chapter 15)...
Our suffering can increase through the agony of not knowing when it will end and why God has allowed it. We want answers to questions that God does not seem eager to explain...We imagine that if only God would tell us the day and time that our wait will end, we could relax and pace ourselves during our waiting.

But the idea that this suffering could stretch on indefinitely haunts us and makes the present much more difficult. We can stand short bursts of pain, such as in the dentist's chair or when we get a flu shot, because we know the pain will end quickly and because we feel confident the suffering will produce a greater good. We don't seem to need or ask for God's strength in those moments...

Lack of control, however, with no sense of when the suffering will end or why God allows it, nudges us to an all-knowing, all-powerful Lord. God can best demonstrate who He is when we are paying careful attention. Perhaps this is one reason why He does not reveal to us His exact times and dates and reasons. We want Him to reveal the future--He wants to reveal His character. (Jennifer Saake, Hannah's Hope)

WAIT
by Russell Kelfer
Desperately, helplessly, longingly, I cried;
Quietly, patiently, lovingly, God replied.
I pled and I wept for a clue to my fate . . .
And the Master so gently said, "Wait."

"Wait? you say wait?" my indignant reply.
"Lord, I need answers, I need to know why!
Is your hand shortened? Or have you not heard?
By faith I have asked, and I'm claiming your Word.

"My future and all to which I relate
Hangs in the balance, and you tell me to wait?
I'm needing a 'yes', a go-ahead sign,
Or even a 'no' to which I can resign.

"You promised, dear Lord, that if we believe,
We need but to ask, and we shall receive.
And Lord I've been asking, and this is my cry:
I'm weary of asking! I need a reply."

Then quietly, softly, I learned of my fate,
As my Master replied again, "Wait."
So I slumped in my chair, defeated and taut,
And grumbled to God, "So, I'm waiting for what?"

He seemed then to kneel, and His eyes met with mine . . .
and He tenderly said, "I could give you a sign.
I could shake the heavens and darken the sun.
I could raise the dead and cause mountains to run.

"I could give all you seek and pleased you would be.
You'd have what you want, but you wouldn't know Me.
You'd not know the depth of my love for each saint.
You'd not know the power that I give to the faint.

"You'd not learn to see through clouds of despair;
You'd not learn to trust just by knowing I'm there.
You'd not know the joy of resting in Me
When darkness and silence are all you can see.

"You'd never experience the fullness of love
When the peace of My spirit descends like a dove.
You would know that I give, and I save, for a start,
But you'd not know the depth of the beat of My heart.

"The glow of my comfort late into the night,
The faith that I give when you walk without sight.
The depth that's beyond getting just what you ask
From an infinite God who makes what you have last.

"You'd never know, should your pain quickly flee,
What it means that My grace is sufficient for thee.
Yes, your dearest dreams overnight would come true,
But, oh, the loss, if you missed what I'm doing in you.

"So, be silent, my child, and in time you will see
That the greatest of gifts is to truly know me.
And though oft My answers seem terribly late,
My most precious answer of all is still . . . Wait."

2 comments:

  1. Loved that book as well. I can't even tell you how many times I read that and re-read that poem- it gave me hope through some really dark days.

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  2. I LOVE that book! I read it for the first time in 2006 and have since leant it to several women. So glad you found it!

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