Tuesday, January 31, 2012

Looking Back at that First Post

For some reason the other day I went back and read my very first post... It's A Roller Coaster Kind of Life. It brought tears to my eyes. It's crazy how fast life changes. One minute I was pregnant with twin girls. The next minute my life was turned upside down. Now a few minutes year and a half later I am holding my precious Rainbow baby in my arms.
I patiently (or not so patiently) waited on my Heavenly Father and trusted that He had a plan for my life. And I trusted that His plan included me being an earthly mother. With faith that never only sometimes wavered my promise came true on December 27, 2011. I honestly don't know how many times a day I stop and thank God for my little miracle. And when the tears come (because they still do) I look at my little miracle and remember that God's plan is perfect. Oh yes...God knew all along what He was doing!!! 
In that post I wrote..."She (my mom) gives me so much hope for the future. That someday I will be a mommy again and that Brian will be a daddy. And that we will be able to tell other children about their big sisters." There were times when I wondered "will I ever be a mommy again" but I am so thankful for the encouragement that my mom always gave me. She kept me believing even when I doubted. No one knows God's plans for their lives but for me the desire of being an earthly mommy never went away. And because it never went away I believed that my dream would someday come true. And praise the Lord it did because now I can tell Mason all about his big sissy's (and his big bruder)!!! 
So here I am a year and a half later and so thankful that my life is not quite as "roller coasty." But man oh miskins has it ever been quite the ride. And even though I know this ride is far from over...I am so excited to finally sit back and enjoy a little bit of it!!!
So keep trusting. Keep believing. And KEEP PRAYINGBecause God IS still listening to you. And He KNOWS your pain. But He (and only He) knows what's best for you...so desire His plan...His perfect plan!!! And most importantly continue to wait patiently (or as patiently as you can) because the end result WILL be worth all the pain and suffering it took to get there.

You will have pain but your pain will turn to joy. John 16:20

Sunday, January 29, 2012

(Just A Few) Newborn Pictures

A huge (and I mean huge) thanks to Kerry at Images Of Essence for the awesome newborn pictures she took of Mason!!! I am so very very happy with how they turned out. Enjoy a few of my faves!!!

Saturday, January 28, 2012

The Many Faces of Mason

Mama just wanted ONE cute pic...but she definitely got more than one "cute" pic... 

Trying to wink ;) at the pretty lady he calls mama!!!

Practicing some dance moves...

Starting to get hungry...we call it his "rooty tooty" look.

Enough already mom.

Friday, January 27, 2012

One Month

cannot believe that you're already ONE MONTH OLD today...time sure does fly by when you're having fun!!!  The prior 10 months just inched on by but not this month...it came and went faster than the speed of light. Oh Mason Mommy and Daddy love you so so so much. You mean the world to us and we feel so privileged that God chose us to be your parents. Can't wait to continue watching you grow baby boy...just not too fast!

Mommy and Daddy

Stats: Mason's next doctor appointment (including weight check) isn't until his 2 month check-up so not exactly sure of his current weight but thinking he's gotta be trekking towards 11 pounds.

Sizes: When Mason hit 2 and a half weeks we put away all his newborn clothing. (The sleeves of his newborn clothes were no longer covering his arms). So now he's wearing 0-3 or 3 month clothing and size 1 diapers.

First Bottle: My Pediatrician recommended introducing a bottle between 3 and 4 weeks. But my sister said that she always introduced a bottle at 2 weeks. So Mr. Mason got introduced to the bottle at 2 weeks 2 days. (I wanted daddy to feel involved). And let me just say that Mason LOVED his first bottle...maybe not as much as getting it straight from mama but he did finish off every last drop of that bottle. (And it was a 4 oz bottle mind you all)!!!

Food: Mason is on a strict diet of booby milk. During the day he typically breastfeeds every 3 hours. However, sometimes he wants it a little more frequently (as in every hour). But I've been told to NOT let this become a habit so I try to hold him to at least every 2.5 hours. I will admit though if we're heading somewhere and I want him to be content (or asleep)...I top him off (even if he ate just an hour prior). If we're running errands (or at the mall shopping) he can make it at least 4 hours without eating. (He could pry make it even longer but I typically don't like him to go any longer than 4 hours without eating during the day). During the night it varies. Lately, (crossing my fingers this habit continues) he has been making a 5-6 hour stretch to begin the night and then he lasts another 2-3 hours. I pump about twice a day but only for 5-7 minutes (only to make sure he gets a 4oz bottle at night).

Routine: We don't have much of a routine yet. But when he wakes up in the morning he typically wants to eat and then every 2.5-3 hours there after. However, like I mentioned above...I will sneak in an extra feeding to keep him content if we're off to church or if I want to run some errands. Most mornings (unless we're off and running) he stays awake for a couple of hours. We try to give Mason his last feed (a bottle) of the night between 9 and 10pm. He then likes to stay awake for another hour or so. But in hopes of breaking this pattern for the last few nights I have taken to rocking him to sleep after his nightly bottle. But believe me...he fights me on this one because he wants to be awake. (On a side note mom is NOT a night owl). So he screams for a bit until he succumbs to sleep. But once asleep he generally sleeps until 3 or 4am. Yea!!! And then he wakes (to eat) again between 6 and 7am. And yes at this point (most of the time) he will fall back to sleep for another hour or so but once in awhile he is all bright-eyed and ready to begin his day. He definitely has some big awake spans throughout the day but they are not at all predictable.

We try to do tummy time or playmat time at least twice a day and he gets a bath every 2-3 days. I wash his face every day but since he hates bath time so much we limit it to about 3 times a week.

Developmental Milestones: Mason is definitely getting better at holding up his own little noggin. He likes tummy time the best when I lay him on my belly. I like to think its because he wants to look at his mama!!! Although Mason is not cooing yet...he IS big on grunting...especially in the middle of the night. :) He also likes to grunt before a good poop. He smiles here and there...just not sure if they're "real" smiles yet.

Loves: Mason loves his hands and he loves sticking out his adorable little booty. Every time I put him over my shoulder or on my belly...the booty pops OUT...(pretty sure he did this in utero too)!!! He loves bright flashing lights. Most nights Brian will sit with him and play nursery rhyme videos off his I-phone and Mason is so content watching the flashes of color (oh and maybe he likes the music too)!!! He loves to sleep and he is SUCH a good sleeper. He typically falls asleep anytime we're in the car or if he's in his stroller so this makes it really easy for me when I'm running errands or shopping. Mason also LOVES peeing during bathtime or peeing when I'm in the process of changing his diaper...naughty boy. I learned my lesson (after he sprayed himself, his changing table, and the wall behind his changing table. I now cover his lil "peter" when I'm changing him but I just let him have his way in the shower. Oh and for short amounts of time he likes his playmat...again that would be for short amounts of time.

Dislikes: I swear the little guy dislikes burping. For the first 2 weeks of his life he rarely burped. Thankfully he has gotten a touch better in this department. He also really and I mean REALLY dislikes bathtime...he cries every.single.time...breaks his mama's heart.
Not happy...

Still not happy...

And finally all tuckered out from bathtime...

Thursday, January 26, 2012

Because I Like These Kind of Things...

1. Were you named after anyone?
Nope. My middle name isn't even after anyone.

2. When was the last time you cried?
When my sweet RAINBOW baby was placed in my arms. Mmmm actually I cried on the drive home from the hospital too because I was just so stinkin happy TO BE GOING HOME WITH A BABY!!!

3. Do you like your handwriting?
Yes I do. And (not to pat myself on the back but...) many other peeps have told me that they like it too!!!

4. What is your favorite lunch meat?
A toss up between turkey and ham. Turkey is healthier but I think I'm gonna have to go with ham.

5. Do you have kids?
Sure do. Three little angels in Heaven (Alayna Joy, Ella Adrianna, and Luke) and one little angel in my arms (Mason Dale).

6. If you were another person would you be friends with you?
I'm gonna go ahead and say YES!!! But IF and Loss most definitely changed me so I'm very thankful for the friends who have stuck with me for the long haul!!!

7. Do you use sarcasm a lot?

8. Do you still have your tonsils?

9. Would you bungee jump?
No thank you.

10. What is your favorite cereal?
I love cereal too much to just pick one so I'm gonna pick 3. In no specific order...Frosted Mini Wheats, Bran Flakes, and Wheat Chex.

11. Do you untie your shoes when you take them off?
I really do not have that many tie shoes (I like boots in the Winter and flats for Spring/Summer). But if I happen to have a pair of tie shoes on it just depends if I'm in a hurry or whether I feel like bending :)

12. Do you think you are strong?
I use to be but now...not so much. (I'm talking about physical strength here).

13. What is your favorite ice cream?
Again I don't have just ONE favorite so I'm gonna say it's a tie between Mint Chocolate Chip, Cookies 'n Cream, and Chocolate Chip Cookie Dough.

14. What is the first thing you noticed about people?

15. Red or pink?
Red. But I like pink too...just not hot or bright...unless its on my toes!!!

16. What is the least favorite thing about yourself?
Right now I just want to lose the last 17-20 (it fluctuates depending on time of day) pounds of baby weight. I would like to fit into my pre-pregnancy pants.

17. Who do you miss the most?
My children in Heaven but I also realize that if they were here...Mason wouldn't be.

18. What are you listening to right now?
The music on my blog and watching The King of Queens.

19. Mountain hideaway or beach house?
Beach House.

20. Scary movies or happy endings?
Happy Endings.

21. Hugs or kisses?
Depends on who's giving them.

22. What book are you reading now?
Do magazines count? I can't wait to get into a good book again but it might be a little bit before that happens.

23. Favorite sound?
Any sound (and I mean any) that comes from my baby boy.

24. What color is your house?
Tan with white trim.

25. What color is your car?
Up until a few weeks ago I would have said maroon but now I drive my hubby's truck (and he drives my car) so now I have to say black.

Wednesday, January 25, 2012

Boys Rule

I had to run some errands today and one of those errands was a trip to Target. I had to return some pink and purple sippy cups (that I had received at one of my showers) because Brian said he didn't want his son drinking out of "girly looking" cups. So the cashier (a young girl) asked me if there was anything wrong with the cups and I said nope. We just didn't know what we were having and obviously we had a boy!!! I then added...and I'm not sure why someone bought me pink and purple sippys since we didn't know what we were having. The cashier said the person pry hoped you'd have a little girl. I kind of looked at her and she said well when I was pregnant I really hoped for a little girl. And I asked why? She said because I'm a single mom. In response I said...well I wouldn't trade my boy for anything...we went through a lot to have him. And I'm sure now that you have your little boy that you wouldn't trade him for anything either. Her response...I still wish he were a little girl. And then she went on to say...I didn't know what I was having either but I was still disappointed when he first came out. WHAT (insert swear words here). I just couldn't believe the words coming out of her mouth. I guess some people don't realize how lucky they are to just get pregnant and to just have a baby.

This is totally not to say that I wouldn't love a little girl (again) someday but I wouldn't trade my BOY for the WORLD!!! Never once have I felt disappointed that my Buggy was a HE and not a SHE.

Saturday, January 21, 2012

I LOVE My Cousins

On Friday morning Mason (and mommy) went to grandma's house and it just so happened that all of his cousins were there too!!!

The WHOLE Vugteveen crew...until baby BOY Vugteveen joins the gang in April!!!
Easton, Cole, Cambrey, Brinley, Addisyn, Kylynn, and Mason

And again...

And on that note...I think we're done!

But before the big kids got back to playing...everyone wanted a chance to hang on to Baby Mason.
Kylynn and Mason

Cambrey and Mason

Addi and Mason

Cole and Mason

Easton didn't need a turn...

And Brinley and Mason (notice his defensive pose).

Mason is thinking..."mommy, why did you put me by her?"

A Hodge Podge of Mason

Even though the shirt was too big...daddy just had to have a picture of you sporting (one) of your first pieces of Michigan apparel!!!

Thanks for my shirt Aunt Courtney!!!

Mommy loves taking picture of me...me on the other hand...sometimes not so much...
getting so big

Thanks for finally dressing me mom.

My mommy really loves me...

 And I really love my mommy...
This is Mason's "I want booby to eat" face

Mommy is always a little too slow (to catch my cute little smile) so here are a few pics of me sorta smiling...

I generally don't mind tummy time...

 But sometime I get really lazy...

Children are a gift from the Lord... Psalm 127:3

Thursday, January 19, 2012

A Few Thoughts...

  • My mom told me last week that she was glad I was back. I asked her what she meant by that and she said...You're YOU again. You're happy again!!! And to be very honest I AM happy again and its all because of my sweet (RAINBOW) miracle boy...Mason Dale!!! The moment (and I mean THE moment) that I laid eyes on my beautiful baby BOY the thick cloud of anxiety that had consumed me for the last 10 months instantly vanished. Oh its good to be ME again!!!
  • A few people have asked me (since Mason's birth) if having him here has made me think about/miss the girls. And to be honest I try not to think about my beautiful little angels because I don't want to be sad. I want to be happy!!! And boy oh boy does Mason ever make me happy. He has brought a healing to my heart that I never thought possible. Being a mom is everything I've dreamed about and more. I know that every baby is a miracle but when I look at Mason I am just in awe at what God orchestrated to get him here.
  • I miss my girls but bottom line is this...if they were here...Mason would not be (and maybe never would have been. It takes the perfect month and the perfect cycle). The thing I always remind myself is that I will have all my children with me in Heaven...and what a day it will be when all my children (and mommy and daddy too) are reunited...yes what a day it will be!!! 
  • And one final thought that I wanted to share (and this thought has been very heavy on my heart). If we had had the girls and Luke and his twin...we would have been done. We would have paid to keep the last 4 embryos frozen forever. And you all know what this would have meant...Mason would have been frozen forever. The thought of this brings tears to my eyes. I cannot imagine Mason being "stored away" forever. It just goes to show that God's plan is always (WAY) better than ours. And that sometimes it just takes a few months or years to understand this. And you know what else I would never ever change our story because everything that we went through led us to our little Miracle Man Mason. So yes I WOULD endure all of the pain and suffering (again) just to get to him.

Though he brings grief, he will show compassion, so great is his unfailing love. Lamentations 3:32

Saturday, January 14, 2012

One Year Later

It's hard to believe how much life can change in a year. But man oh man am I ever thankful its January 14, 2012 and NOT January 14, 2011. And this is why...its been ONE whole year since finding out our Rainbow baby (Luke) was no more. Believe me I will never EVER forget the day or the moment when we knew that our dreams were crashing down before us again. That ultrasound screen will forever haunt me. Hence, why never again will I go to an ultrasound appointment by myself. But 3 short long months later we were implanted again. And this time the implantation led us to our little miracle (Rainbow) boy...Mason Dale!!! 

"Weeping may stay for the night, but rejoicing comes in the morning." Psalm 30:5. 

YES rejoicing does come in the morning!!!